"...and I've spent a lot of time with her."
Me: "Are you talking about me?"
Jim: "Yes. I will take good care of her."
A lot of times Jim's sentences are a string of words that don't make a lot of sense. And he frequently mixes up pronouns. But this one I figured out. So touching. This is the man I fell in love with so many years ago. Always the romantic, so thoughtful, full of love and tenderness. I'm really going to miss him when he's gone.
More changes have come our way, and today's post will document some of these changes. I have found it helpful for me to look back, and hopefully it may help others who are on this dementia journey, as I share what we are experiencing.
Lately Jim has been very focused on zippers. He has several favorite hoodies that he wears around the house when he feels too cold (often!). When he takes it off, he is compelled to zip it up before it goes on a hanger. He is no longer capable of doing this without my help. He will try to zip it up from the top, or he will take a label (from the seam) and try to insert it into the zipper to zip it up.
Dressing skills are in decline, he now needs specific verbal cues and gestures to help him with the task of dressing. His comprehension of the spoken word has declined enough so that I try to include gestures/pointing when speaking to him.
Doors are left open. Not really a big deal, but the other day he went outside to sweep the driveway and left the house door and garage door open. Had a few unwanted flying insects, but otherwise no big deal. He almost always needs a reminder to close the car door when he exits the car.
He no longer can "find" the seat belt. Once I point it out, he does not know how to buckle it without my guidance.
I need to be present when he heads to the kitchen. An ice cream container may end up sitting on the table. A dirty napkin may be tossed in the dishwasher. We are missing a few utensils; I suspect they may have landed in the trash.
He sometimes uses the wrong utensil (fork for a sauce). He also is having trouble using a knife to cut food. I've been finding clever ways to pre-cut food that make it easier, without making it look child-like. (I use a pizza wheel to cut a pizza into small, bite size squares.)
Shower time (mine!). I never shower until Jim is ready for the day. His routine of showering and dressing usually exhausts him. This works well, so that he is content to watch TV while I shower and get ready for the day. I always leave the bathroom door open so that he can hear where I am. Sometimes he'll come in to ask a pressing (for him) question. But most times it is a nice relaxing shower, and I am all by myself!
Probably the challenge I find the hardest is to create fun, meaningful ways to spend our time together. I added Hulu and Netflix, desperate for some additional viewing options. I thought for sure the documentary nature shows would be just the ticket. He used to love to watch reruns of Seinfeld, but not any longer. He always loved watching the news, but lately tires of it fairly quickly. I try very hard to take into account his inability to hold onto a thought for very long, and that his comprehension is poor. He is most content at home, so out of the house activities are for very short periods of time. Still working on this one...
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